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WORK WORK WORK

Lots and lots of work and hardly any time to myself.
I like it

I'm more productive when I'm busy all the time

Yoga

I've decided to start doing yoga. As of tomorrow I'll begin. I'm actually quite excited about it. It's supposed to destress your life. I am in major need of it. Anybody want to start with me?

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sickness

All day yesterday I had to work because my boss wouldn't let me go home, "you're not that sick, you came in didn't you?"

Only reason I came in was because I had called in and he said too many people were calling in sick and I had to come in, if I was really sick as I said I was he'd see it. Well everybody at work saw it but him. Especially the customers that asked for another waitress because they were afriad I would get them sick.

It was hella busy. I had to take the largest section because I'm the last one there, the other servers didn't want to give me the smaller section because they didn't feel like it today (exact words). I always take the bigger section because they never feel like it, but usually it doesn't bother me.

So anyway, after being so busy and taking more tables then anyone else, I lost my voice and my entire body began to hurt. That's when my tables started to request different servers. Which after telling my boss that his response was that I was a worthless employee and I should be fired. I had been close to tears all day and almost thought I was going to then. Instead I was getting ready to punch him.

Luckly his wife is also a server and came over and bitched him out, saving my job.

When I went home I just had to lay down, and eat cereal because my parents already ate and didn't feel like bringing me home anything. All night I've been waking up either really really cold and shivering under five blankets, or sweating even after I kick everything off.

Three in the morning and I'm fully awake :(

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something I don't get

If you know me personally then you should know that if you vent at me I will listen. And if there is something wrong with your logic I will point it out to you.

But if you know me and choose to take your anger out on me. You know I will not be nice and I'm more likely to end up mad and yell back. If you know me so well, why are you surprised?

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Love :)

When they say that it's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all, I believe this.
Being in love is the most amazing feeling :)
I never want to be any thing but in love

What Can Go Wrong

Will always go wrong.

That's just how it is on my bad days. Someday I will learn to accept it.

But right now I'm hanging on for dear life to everything that has not gone bad yet.

Phone: Turned off because the bill wasn't paid. I can't receive any texts or calls and of course I can't send any.

My Car: My keys are locked inside of my car, in front of my house. (hey, at least its safe... for now)

Grandmas Car: Nothing is wrong with it, except I can't use it today like we planned because of my cousins graduation that my grandparents will be attending.

Moms Car: Again, nothing is wrong with it, except I can't use it because my mom drove it to work.

How this all ties together: I can't get ahold of my mom because both of our phones are turned off so i can't text her and have her put her keys in her car. I can't get to my moms car anyways because my keys are locked inside. 

All this keeps me from going Murry to go shopping with my Mary Kay director, have lunch, then go and see James for the night before I leave with my dad.

Strange problem

I always get the urge to start writing again. but every time I do I set myself up at the computer and I don't want to do it anymore. 

I've finally decided why that is. It was when I was writing down a number so I could text to it someone. I wrote it down! With a pen and a paper. Most of the relaxation for me comes from the actual process of writing something down on paper.

The reason I never really feel like blogging anymore, or writing poems I guess. I'm going to start writing everything down on paper before I pst it up somewhere. even if its just a quote or a lyric or something like that.

Get myself WRITING again :)

Random thoughts, quote, lyrics, ect. ect...

When all you are is all you have done, what will you do next?

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Spa Night

Around eight o'clock I decided that I wanted to take a bath and relax. But as I was prepping myself and the tub for it. I noticed that I was out of body wash and shampoo. So I decided to run into town to buy some and come home really quick. 

When I got to Kent's I remembered that all of my disposable razors were disposed of and I would be needing some more of those as well. The second thing I looked for was the shampoo, I went with Herbal Essences because it smelled like mango and passion fruit. Both the shampoo and conditioner :)

The last thing on the list was the body wash, which I could not find for the life of me. and I looked all over the stinking isle  trying to find it. The more I tried to find with while failing, the more pissed off I got about it. All the while talking to James on the phone and telling him how pissed I was getting about it.  And I decided to go to the front and ask them where it was or if they just didn't sell it or something. 

On my way up I passed several drinks and decided I was going to treat myself with something tasty, that way I might not be so mad about not having any body wash. So I went to the vegetable isle and started looking for my favorite drink, pomegranate and white berry tea. 

Of course they didn't have it. But I did notice that the Naked juice smoothy was having a sale so I bought two drinks.

Finally I got the the front where I asked if they had body wash and the cashier replied, "Oh yeah it's in isle 9, with the soaps." This is where I had my "Duh" moment. Of course they are, it IS soap. And I found a pretty nice selection of body scrubs :)

So, While bathing I sat and drank my Power-G, Naked, All Natural Well Being drink, (what a mouth full) I read a book called Coraline. Then to wash, I used my Body Butter Apricot Body Scrub (another mouth full). My Herbal Essences Mango with Passionfruit Shampoo and Conditioner to wash my hair. Then, I shaved my legs with my Brand new four blade razor. 

When I got out I washed my face with my Mary Kay Miracle Set that includes: face wash, microdermabrasion  steps 1 and 2, night solution, and Lotion. Then, because I have this horrible thing called eczema, I had to use my Eurcerin lotion all over (or how ever you spell it).

Now I am Relaxing in my yellow polka dot nighty and my softest robe finishing my juice smoothy. I would say that tonight was extremely relaxing :)

Doesn't this sound like some sort of commercial add? ha ha ha

The Sad Part of Remembering

Everytime I start looking through old journals, posts, comments, and other types of blogs- I find it's always easier to remember the bad parts and to relive them twice ad hard. Cry twice as much. I always wish I hadn't looking into the past and just stayed in the present where everything isn't so bad.


A lot of the time I wish I didn't see so much bad in the world and in the people living in it.

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I Miss Art

I miss how it used to flow into my life at every moment. 

I miss the urge I used to have to draw and to write about the beauty I see everyday in my life. 

I miss seeing the bad things in life, that made me want to write it down and to get it out of my system. Now, instead, it finds its way into me and hides in a dark corner of my being and it won't come out. I miss the structure and chaos of art. How every part of it can be an absolute mess at first glance, then the longer you look at it, you see what lies underneath the mess and disaster, you see true intentions and meanings.

I miss life. 
I miss meeting new people as often as I can and getting to know something about them. 
Falling in love with a complete stranger because they are so different and unique, then hating them because they are the same as so many people you see, and then learning to accept them for who they are. 
I miss repeating the cycle with every new face that passes me by.

I miss excitement.
I miss not having to plan every moment of my day. Being able to just go and do something that sounded fun, and being able to find someone to enjoy it with. Not worry about whether they have other plans or not. I miss being able to go on a random adventure through town. Acting like we've never been there before, then finding something we didn't know was there.


I miss being young.
I miss being innocent to the grown up world and living in my own world that you could only be invited to. Not knowing what my family was talking about when they spoke politics. Not caring what it meant about me. I miss the entertainment I got from watching cartoons and it wasn't weird that I watched them because that's was little kids do. 


But most of all; I miss art.
I miss the influence that art had on my life. I miss wanting to be an artist when I grew up like my grandmother.  I miss waking up early in the morning to see the beauty of the sunrise and listening to the birds sing. I miss wanting to capture the moment so I could look back on it from time to time to cheer myself up. I miss wanting to share art with every one I know.

I miss art.

Written: March 2, 2009

I hate snow :)

In my own sad opinion, Snow sucks really really bad. And I am so ready for all of the snowing to just be OVER with completely. Here I'm going to list ten reasons of why I hate snow.

So here it is:

1. It is freaking cold ALL of the time, and when you are as small as I am, you were already cold all of the time. When it snows it is just 20 times colder! There is not enough clothing in the world to keep me warm right now.
2. When it is snowing outside and it makes it so I can't go into work, it makes  me look bad. "Everybody else is driving into work," Yes that may  be true, but not everybody else is driving MY car. It's a piece of junk! Or when I am on my way into work and they call and say they don't need me. It's also a pain in the ass to turn around in the snow. If you get stuck, nobody wants to pull over and help, because it's COLD.
3. Driving the day after a snow storm or a few days after when it's not snowing anymore and a little sunny is really hard because the sun reflecting off the snow into my eyes makes it very hard to see and drive straight.
   
4. Ice, is what comes after the snow has melted from the sunny weather then  re-frozen from another snow storm, itloves to form around my car. Ice is slippery, slip resistant shoes do not slip on water, but they do slip on ice. very easily. Ice is even worse when it is snowing because it becomes that much more slippery. You walk to your car, you open your piece of junk door that is heavy, and then you fall on the very hard, wet, slippery ice.
   
5. The only shoes I have that are suitable for snow are my snow boots. I got these suckers when I was in the 6th grade. They are too small for me and they are not cute what so ever. I cannot wear any of my cute shoes that I bought for the spring/summer/fall because if I wear them in the snow then they are sure to be ruined. If they are not ruined by the snow, then my feet are still too cold to wear them. 
   
6. Since I am always cold, I have to constantly wear a sweater, hoody, or a jacket. This prevents me from wearing any cute clothes that I want people to see, because I am wearing the same sweater as yesterday and the day before that. It also prevents me from wearing dresses or skirts of any sort.
7. Distance is a killer when it comes to snow. My boyfriend, James, lives 40 minutes away from me in good weather. He now lives 1 hour and 30 minutes away when there is snow on the ground. When it is snowing, he may as well live on another continent, because neither of us can drive to see each other. Which makes distance even worse.
8. If you are sitting at home after you cannot go into work and cannot drive up to see your boyfriend, then you certainly are not watching T.V. because there is snow on your satellite, that is blocking your signal keeping you from enjoying any T.V. shows. 
   
9. If there is no snow on your Satellite, don't worry, the power is out.
10. When your power is out and you are stuck at home, because you can't get out of your driveway; You're bored because there is no T.V. or light to read; You're hungry because there is no way to heat up your food on your electric stove or your microwave (you'll want something warm to eat); You're wet from falling on the ice in the snow when you cleared off your car; And you are now freezing! But you can't turn on the heat because there is no electricity.
    

Of course I just spent the short time that I had with the power on to type this up for you because I'm that pissed off about it.

Written: February 17, 2009.  9:38 a.m. 

And Here We.......Go

I was silly and I made two different accounts which was not the smartest thing for me to do. So I was going to try and combine the two together and just use one, but i figured out that I do not know how to import a blog. Now, my first blog I ever made is lost forever now because I deleted the other account.

It's time to start anew anyway.